JOY AND PEACE

All of the fruits of the spirit seem to intermingle with each other and I definitely can lump these two together since I didn't have a chance to write yesterday because of my son's diaper rash. Whoa... is it in full force. He spent last night and this morning in the bath. At least he isn't screaming when he is in the water. Poor guy.

I am trying daily to find joy in everything that I do. I definitely need help with this but I am trying and that is what matters. One thing I have always prided myself on is that when the boys (Roy and Gavin) ask me to do something I always try to get up and do it even when I am dog tired and want nothing more than to stay in my chair. I think apart of me always felt the boys would love me more if they knew that I would get up and play with them. It brings me great joy to hear them call for me to come outside and play with them. I enjoy myself outside that I am thankful that I am still able to get out and play. I am thankful that I am semi-athletic and so I can keep up with all my boys. The joy of having my own son born and seeing him grow daily has been awesome. It is much harder to juggle three now but I think we are managing. I am not able to go out with the older boys as much because of KK. I need to do a better job. He can play in the grass but he always wants to get out in the middle and seems to get hurt so I try to keep him back a little as much as possible.

Another joy of mine which helps bring me a lot of peace is that I feel like I have become a much better, nicer, thoughtful person as I have matured over my years. I didn't really like the person I was in high school and college and I always like to hear from people, "WOW you have changed." I love to know that my own personal progress is noticed by others.

It brings me great joy and peace that I have turned out to be a good person and that God brought me back to Him. I love to go to church, listen to sermons on line, pray with the boys, and try daily to do something nice for someone else. Life always seems to throw curve balls so it is nice to always have someone to turn to for guidance.